Shattered pieces

I have been very lucky throughout my life...blessed with best of friends (just chatted this line to one such duffer). A lot has been going on in my mind lately. Im not the kind to get philosophical often but there comes a time when I end up recollecting all my eventful past and the various mistakes I have made through its course. Like everyone else I love to believe that whatever I did is for the best and I am a blessing to mankind. But sometimes  when you think back you realize all the big mistakes u made which changed not just urs but many other lives as well. More often than I would like to admit I have changed things for the bad. The only thing pulling me back up are those idiots u have around u all through this time, pestering u and irritating u and abusing u and in their own stupid ways making u feel that ur the biggest and the best jerk in the world, but then ur their jerk n they love for being the jerk that u are!!!!! They dont blame u for breaking the mirror but ask u to see how ridiculous u look when u stare into those shattered pieces and how each colour shines out. Thats them n I have a bunch of them. There are times when I have not replied to ur stupid wds or picked up ur calls or called u back but that never means ur forgotten; ur thr always; Im just the lazy jerk!!! Dedicated to all those idiots in my life thnx for makin me wat I am today...luv yaaa muuuah